Confidence

Heeelooooooo Bloggerettos,

So as you probably already know, Confidence is a big thing within this blog. It is intertwined into almost every post and is the reason for me creating this blog. I think confidence is amazing. Someone who is able to look past thier own faults and imperfections and can still say "I am amazing" Overwhelms me, mesmerises me. I am not the most shy human being on the planet, far from it. However confidence within myself, self belief, is something I fail to grasp.

I think one reason for this is my eczema. For those of you wondering eczema is skin condition which creates cuts, redness and sometimes blisters on the skin. For me eczema has been an ongoing battle for the majority of fifteen years. For a number of years it was mild and was irreagular. It never stayed for too long. Despite this, around three years ago my ecxema flared up and it was awful. It got so bad that I could hardly walk, move and couldn't sleep at night. I spent hours and hours at night crying my eyes out because the pain was unbearable. Eventually I agreed that a skin condition which was making it difficult to move my arms was ridiculous.I decided to make an appointment at my local practice. The doctor  however made me feel so small and pointless it dampend my spirits further.

But my mother wouldn't give up. She would buy mouisturiser after mousturiser trying to find something that would work. Sadly, Nothing did. It was then my mum decided to take me back to the doctor. I was not as happy about this as my mother but I didn't have a choice. When we went back it was the locam doctor that I had to see. He was such a gentleman and got me booked in at the hospital.

It was then that I was now going to the hospital everyday. Wearing dressings which made me look like a mummy. I felt so bad about myself. It was such a low time in my life. I would say things such as: "Why am I so ugly?" "Why is my skin so sore?" "I hate my life" "I don't deserve this" "I don't even care" "I am so different" "I will never get married" Looking back I was so selfish. Leaving my mum with these questions which she couldn't answer.

Eventually my skin began to clear up. I was so happy. Everything was looking up. My grades were good, I had started to play Cello and was offered a place in the Edinburgh Youth Orchestra. I just felt like me again. I began to gain Confidence. It was great.

My skin is still on the mend and I have to wear dressings at night. And yes I have marks on my legs. Scars which will always be with me. The memories of people saying nasty things but it all just reminds me of how strong I am. How amazing I am. And how much my confidence has grown. I love my life and most of all me. I am who I am. I am confident, and you can be too.

I would like to thank:
My amazing mum who has been with me through it all, the long nights, the tears, the laughter, the lows and the highs.
Dr.Todd for getting me seen so quickly at the hospital
And, all the staff in the hospital who have helped me with the recovery.

I love you all,
Enjoy life
Be confident

See you soon,
Emamama
xoxo

25 Random Questions Tag

Hello Bloggerettos,

So I was very bored,  Therefore I decided to do the 20 Questions tag:-

Heres goes nothing:

Question 1: Do you have any pets? Yes I have a 1 year old dog named Bear who is a St. Wieler (A St. Bernard X Rotweiller Cross) And I had a cat named Ginger who sadly passed away in August last year.
Question 2: Name three things that are physically close to you: My laptop, An empty "mini rolls" wrapper and my TV
Question 3: What's the weather like right now? Cloudy and far too cold for Spring, This Summer better be FAB because this whole year so far has been rubbish! (The weather!!)
Questions 4: Do you drive ? If so, have you crashed? No I can't drive, I'm not old enough yet :( But about 4 years ago I was involved in a car crash when I was in the car with my mum and another car crashed into the back of us. I ended up in hospital for two days with a suspected slipped disk in my back and Severe Whiplash. Luckly I am absoloutley fine now and my neck and back were fine after a year of physio.
Question 5: What time did you wake up this morning? Well it is the Easter Holidays so I didn't get up untill 20 till 11 (OOOOOHHHHH LAZY EMMA)
Question 6: When was the last time you showered? Last Night, yous are picturing me naked now aren't you?
Question 7: What was the last movie that you saw? The last film I saw was Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Question 8: What does you last text message say? Meet you at 12 at Primark?
Question 9: What is your ringtone? Die Young by Kesha because I am just that cool and I am actually Kesha's sister (No i'm lying, but it is just Die Young)

Question 10: Have you ever been to a different country? I have only been to one different country from my own which is Scotland and that was Majorca which was fantastic and I loved it (I have been twice.

Question 11: What is your favourite item of clothing? I would have to say it is my Jack Wills hoodie which my friends bought me for my 15th birthday this year, Thanks guys! :)

Question 12: What are your biggest obsessions? Music, blogging and Photography

Question 13: Who inspires you? My mummy, she is fantastic. I love her!!

Question 14: Would you rather ask someone out or be asked out? Asked out, Come on guys theres your chance! ;)

Question 15: Ever had a French Kiss? Nope

Question 16: Are you a Virgin? Yes

Question 17: What do you look for in a girl/boyfriend? Honest, Funny, Good personality, Tall, Strong, Sweet and Just good to be around :)

Question 18: Favourite food? Anything my mum cooks to be honest

Question 19: What is the colour theme in your room if you have one? PINK, PINK, PINK

Question 20: A  hobbie? Brass bands, been in them since I was about 8 years old :)

Question 21: What country/ies would you like to visit? Australia, New Zealand, Canada, The U.S (DISNEYLAND!) And Bermuda

Question 22: Favourite Shops? Jack Wills, Hollister, New Look, Topshop, Primark and M and Co

Question 23: Who was your last phonecall from? My Mummy

Question 24: Career aspirations? I have always wanted to go into medicine, but I would always love to be a blogger or a youtuber (Chavvvvvy emma)

Question 25: Favourite TV Programme? F.R.I.E.N.D.S wooooo!

 

  I tag you all,See you soon

Love from Emamama

xoxo

 

Merry monday #5

Yo, vas happenin' bloggerettos?

Once again it is a fab time, MERRY MONDAY (on a Tuesday) and this week my message to you is simple, Be Happy. Not hard to remember, it is so simple this week as I have figured that, life is so much better when you are happy.

So this week, I challenge you, to smile at atleast 10 people per day. You'll feel better and so will they. Make someone else feel better, go on. I DARE YOU.

This weeks quote is from the ever fab-u-lous Bob Marley. (please excuse my terrible handwriting)

New room, new me?!?

Hello bloggerettos,

What a cheesy title today, huh! Well I decided to move my room about, I think thats called funshooi? (please comment below and correct me) Anyway, a little geeky fact aboutme is that when I move my room around I am so much happier! (is that just me?) So, I thought I would do a room tour but then I decided against it as I feel my room is my sanctuary and if I was to show it in a room tour it would loose its sort of magic. So here are some pics instead :-)

Leaving it all in the waves

Hello bloggerettos,

Well today I decided to go on a walk with my dad. That doesn't seem like much but it was amazing. You see my dad and I have not always seen eye to eye. We are, I suppose, Chalk and Cheese (I never understood why it was chalk and cheese?) But I left behind our differences and we walked along the coastline with the gorgeous sky up above. It was quiet, a quaint little town, Aberdour. A nice place to get away. To forget the world. And just enjoy life. We watched the waves, the white horses crashing angainst the rocks. Carrying our problems away. It was PERFECT. Whatever perfect is anyway, or close enough at least. We walked, talked, and just enjoyed each others company for an hour and a half. It was so nice. I don't want to use the word 'nice' its so inbetween, inaccurate, improbable. But it was. So I took some pictures for you, enjoy...

View from our car...

 

Watching the waves

 

My dad and my dog

 

Aberdour beach

 

 

Cheesing in my pink jacket and a messy bun :)

 

So thats it really.

Is there anyone you'd like to get closer with?

Try it, you'll thank me later

 

 

See you soon

Emamama

xoxo